Lately, I have been feeling stressed out. It started since I began work again this past September. I work at a local school, in the cafeteria, for three hours a day. I was able to take all last winter and spring off because I had my baby boy, so I was really spoiled being home all day with him. Well, when I went back I realized how easy I had it. Now, I have to organize everything, like when I clean the house, when I go grocery shopping, and make appointments. Except, I'm not very good at organizing so I started getting overwhelmed. My stress level went way up during the holidays, it has gotten better, but it is still there. Like tonight, for example, I was overwhelmed that I had dishes since yesterday piled up on my counter (we have a dishwasher that came with our house but we don't want to use it and are getting a new one this year). My husband came into the kitchen to give me a kiss goodnight and I pulled away from him and said "I'm feeling pissed." I acted like a complete child and took my bad mood out on my husband. After he went upstairs I felt badly about the way I acted and decided to go apologize. Thankfully, my husband is forgiving and he accepted my apology and gave me another kiss goodnight.
I think it is high time for an attitude adjustment. I can certainly get my work done before I go to my job in the morning, and when I get home. I don't need to relax, that can come later when I go to bed at night.
I also have been thinking hard about quitting my job. We don't need the money (it's really not even worth it- just three hours a day) and it cuts into my little boy's nap time. Thankfully my mom is able to watch him and she lives just five minutes from my work, but when I pick him up at 1:35, he is cranky and tired. Today he actually cried the whole way home.
So, I have some things to work on in my life. I need to be more organized and work on my attitude. Sometimes I feel like I have so far to go and it seems hopeless. But then, I remember that God will help me; I want to read His Word more and be encouraged by it. The best time of day to do that for me is in the morning. That is if I wake up before my baby does. I need to do this though, because the days that I start out reading my Bible really do go better for me.
So, if you actually read through all this, thanks for listening! :-)
Now, here are some pictures of my dresser and Cd shelf.
My dresser is organized! It looks like there is a lot of "stuff" on it, but really, it is all things we use everyday. I do have four picture frames on it, and then a bigger jewelry box and a clock, so that takes up space.
Yup, the ironing board and towels are staying there! It really is the best place for my ironing board, for now. I like drying our towels on it, too, because the heat duct it right underneath it.
I moved the Cd's down a shelf and now I have my little boy's diapers and little wipes box on the top shelf.
Whew! I feel so much better and for the rest of the week I will be organizing other spots in my bedroom that need cleaning!
